Posts Tagged ‘singleness’

I couldn’t pick just one..

heh heh heh

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

The core ones who have been my Australian family. Love you!


It just hit me, that without realizing it, or conscientiously pursuing it, I might be changing my status from single to seeing someone in the near future….. that is… if I don’t chicken out!

How the hell did that happen?

How is it that I am always the last to know?

Will this be the end of my singleness streak?

Only time will tell I guess…..

High Expectations

Are they perhaps too high?

Another one bites the dust..

Out of our close friends of five, the second is about to get married.
Exciting isn’t it?

We’ve been looking forward to it for a while.

Clare has been very very busy making last minute arrangements and payments for the big day which is next month. Here is a cute letter from her to her finance.

Our group tradition is just before one of us is married off, we take a girly weekend (I guess it would be the Hen’s night equivilent) down south to Margaret River. One of our favourite places.
The land of wineries, caves, cheese and chocolate factories and beautiful forest and bushland.

I’ve already told my coach I’m unable to play that weekend – and he replied with – as long as you make the most of it, and consume lots of alcohol. Yeah good one coach! ha ha.

Surfs Up, But where’s the waves?

2009 Summer Surfer’s Ball.

When you’re out in the water, it’s kinda tricky to meet people when you’re a cool… I mean nice people.
You get the guys who think girls shouldn’t be out there.
You get the guys who just try to pick up.
You get me who just wants to have fun and catch some sick waves.
You get my friends who like to make it difficult for me to catch waves. HA.

So, with a brand new dress – purchased the day of the ball – from a local designer, and some girlfriends in tow, we embarked on an adventure to the Perth Surfer’s Ball – which wasn’t even near the beach. It was at a rec centre. Very strange indeed.

The ladies looked beautiful, and the men, well.. they wore dress shirts, ties, suit jackets, boardshorts and thongs. Classy. There was a live band for most of the night playing all your favourite cover songs, and free food, alcohol, and drinks. We had to wrestle one of our party away from one of the chocolate fountains.

Driving towards the coast


Good night, and we were too tired to get up at dawn to go for a surf. ha ha.

I have a date..

with my video game console tonight.

I’m nerding it all on my own.

No wonder I’m single. Ha Ha.

Seriously, no one is doing anything decent tonight, and yet they are all busy.

My night will still be good though.
Might even attack some of that So Good I have in the freezer.

So good .

Currently Listening to Saves the Day 

Now and then

Not only do I enjoy that movie by the same name… but I feel the title is fitting of what has just occurred.
I have the perfect example to see how my life has changed in 8 years… I found an old diary entry(it’s on my livejournal page if anyone cares). I wrote it in my final year of highschool.
From reading my old entry from highschool I can reflect.

I clearly still suffer from loneliness. However it’s a different sort of loneliness now, I believe.
I’ve spent so many years building up walls, that it’s very difficult to penetrate and actually connect with me at a real intimate level.

I’ve got a great set of friends – although we are all insanely busy. I have amazing relationships with my colleagues and even better with my students. I’ve somehow managed to repair the strained relationship with my parents…. although I’m still not the biggest fan of my dad. I love him, even though he was so cruel to me. Mom is a legend and I just want to hug her all day long. I miss them. I am well liked and popular – not because of who I know, or what I’ve done – but because of who I am…. and what I stand for… which gives me strength in that knowledge. The confidence to be myself.

When I moved to Australia a little after writing that entry… It really was the make or break moment in my life.
To move to a country where you know no-one, and know nothing about it… and are fresh out of highschool with little money and no support system – you really learn quickly about who you are and how to look after yourself…

My folks thought I would go off the rails… but rather I did the opposite. I got my life together and cleaned up my act. I email them every week – to keep in touch.

Today I’ve finished three qualifications at uni. Am employed in a great job, actually have enough money for once… living in a sweet four bedroom house with my bro. I’m still crazy about animals and once I have rebuilt the fence in the backyard (when I have some free time on the weekends) I am totally buying a puppy – or close enough…. we’ll see what the rspca has to offer.

I’m still single – It is partly by choice, partly by circumstance. Since moving to Aus in 2002, I have dated one person. That ended early 2003. It’s not like I haven’t had pursuers or offers – but I’m really just not into wasting my time and affection on the wrong person. I’m still looking for my mister charming… and I suppose it’s kinda getting me down that I haven’t found him yet.

I’m glad I have never had one night stands, or slept with a bazillion guys. In highschool I didn’t. Since highschool I haven’t. I’m a firm believer that sex is something special shared between two people in love who have a stable relationship… How old fashioned of me… and so far I haven’t ventured away from this ideal with my actions. I have also managed to avoid the hardcore trend where everyone hooks up with everyone. I haven’t dated anyone in the scene yet… which also means I haven’t been chopped.. ha ha. what a term.

I miss hockey – and I think I am going to start playing again next year. I was watching South Africa play Australia for the women… and it hit me… that if I hadn’t given it up – I would have been on the tv – in that very match. Reality sucks erh..

“Every flower stares and watches… as the leaves slowly die”

Currently listening to Have Heart