So many people just don’t realise how precious what they have really is. This could be said for so many aspects of ones life, and we could talk about this topic for hours, day, weeks on end and there would still always be more to talk about.
Appreciation, Value, Awareness, Effort.
What I really miss, and it’s so hard for my current friends to comprehend is my childhood.
It’s an eternity of memories away. It’s thousands of miles away and scattered over continents.
Different cities/states/provinces/ships and towns.
Some I wonder if I will ever visit again.
My local friends moan and bitch and complain about the “bogans” from their schools, or their daggy neighbours that they have had forever, or the fact that they still live in the same house that they have grown up in.
They get to catch up with school friends, bump into old teachers and family friends.
They get to go somewhere, which is rich in memory, and smell amazing scents which induce vivid reminiscing.
Me?
All I have is a passport, one page away from being full.
Me?
I have a screwed up accent
Me?
I have to accept the fact that my old best friends probably don’t think about me that much, because they haven’t seen me in years.
Me?
I feel shattered in the knowledge that I can’t see the the type of people that my heart yearns for, have become.
I had to grow up so fast, and fend on my own at such a young age.
I have no easy access to my memories. No visible reminder. No way of going back.
I am a nomad.
A resident of nowhere.
Australia could easily tell me to leave
I would be stuck.
Where would I go?
Time goes by.. time after time
I’m older, and wiser, with that small frightened girl inside.
Just waiting, patiently waiting for somewhere to call my home.
Just waiting, quietly waiting, for a family of my own.